Thread:Coolraichu100/@comment-25394521-20150613044026/@comment-24903142-20150616001853

Losing Best friends are tough. But sometimes u just have to overcome that problem in your own way. Like making new friends. if u feel sad when both of your friends are gone, try to do some hobbies. This is like a domino effect, but I can't describe it somehow.

Problems I currently face is : Emotional breakdowns,being Heartbroken, not worth living = (thoughts of suicide), depression, Never caring about others and being antisocial.

After my problems started, I wore black clothes to help me understand and embrace my clouded unknown broken mind. I wore gray clothes since makes feel to have to no emotion and never take sides. Then I wore a mix of both ,which helps me alot.

But I'm a bit stuck on something, might need some advice too : I want to wear clothes with bright colors like blue, green and white, start trying to be kinda social and care for others. But I don't think it will work out for me. I risk the fact if I do, if something goes wrong again, I'll Have an emotional breakdown since i'm open to others and it's gonna be worse... (My depression lasted about 2 1/2 months since I hid it, then got therapy afterwards.

But the main question is: Should take more care for myself with the risk of harming myself?(attempted cutting, or suicide)

Or care for others and have a positive vibe, With the risk of having an emotional breakdown again, restarting this whole depression all over again...